* loCkeD.up*

2009-02-08T23:08:00.001+08:00

* she wants a dream-come-true ending

2008-11-14T23:26:00.003+08:00

sometimes, it's hard to believe that im already 19.
we are all 19.
hey, slow down, will you?

2008-11-09T23:25:00.001+08:00

i hope this will only make us stronger.
much loves.

2008-10-28T15:27:00.004+08:00

why is it that whenever that happens,
i find myself having the same old withdrawal symptoms?

我站在你左侧，却像隔着银河。

2008-10-23T23:40:00.002+08:00

First thing first, Im so glad Ed Psych presentation is over! Finally, it's over :) It has definitely been fun working with my groupmates, learnt and experienced quite alot.

But what made me happier is that the prof ended the lesson in such a meaningful way:) She was able to make us feel encouraged and motivated, and definitely, inspired. When i become a teacher, I wanna be like her too! haha, and hopefully, my students would like me :D

Done with the presentations for this sem, 2 more assignments to go!

A friend said that i look like some cartoon character, omg tell me it's so not true!
BUT, if by any chance i do, let me look like MY MELODY :D

2008-10-14T13:26:00.002+08:00

当烦恼越来越多，
玻璃弹珠越来越少，
我知道我已慢慢地长大了

*我们都已经长大，好多梦正在飞

2008-10-06T22:43:00.002+08:00

it hadnt been a good day today :(
for some moments, i felt so weak..so small.
i think of us, it keeps me going*

2008-10-05T18:18:00.001+08:00

Can procrastination ever be cured?
:(
on the other hand, why cant we procrastinate our thoughts..

2008-10-02T16:16:00.003+08:00

As I look around me,
I realised everyone is growing up.
Gone are those days when we still hang out at playgrounds :)
Those young kiddish games we enjoyed,
that company.
Perhaps, it is now substituted by changes,
but Im really glad,
we're still together :)

Spent my holiday yesterday at home, after many attempts to curb my urges for shopping :) Yayy, we did something interesting and meaningful!

hearts are all over the world! (floor) :D

Haha, no pictures of end product cos ...there's no end product YET due to time constraint and distractions. But it was quite a happy and simple day spent together with kukurainbow :)

Had to drag myself to go for driving today, was so sleepy when i drove:( Learnt parallel parking, and I knocked the pole! HAHAHHHA, the poles deserve it :D I think there's really alot more to brush up on, cause tp is coming in 1 month's time. I need to pass, I have to pass, I want to pass, that would save me from all the morning driving lessons!

hold on together*

2008-09-29T19:29:00.004+08:00

I THINK i know what my problem is.
I THINK TOO MUCH.
so much, too much, way too much :(
And sometimes, im amazed by my imagination.
I need to stop.
STOPP!
okayy, stopped.
:)

Today was grammar paper! Erm, nothing much to comment on, it was okay-able. *Cross fingers & hope i can get good grades* But if I dont, I guess I sort of deserve it cause I haven really been studying much for that, due to the so many distractions that just seemed to all come at the same time. And I was so blur today that I left school happily, forgetting that there's ed psyc meeting. GRRR, and I cant go back to school cause of driving, so I missed the meeting :( Im starting to get tired of driving, definitely not a good sign.

Im going to post pictures! Cause pictures make me happy! :D

bel's 19! pardon the red plastic bag.

we aim to be rockstars!

So far, all has been good.
But, it can definitely be better :)

2008-09-23T23:20:00.006+08:00

STUDY STUDY STUDY!

Today was a productive(definitely) day spent in bi ee's hall! YAYYYYY! Was there since 1 all the way till dinner time, minus the 1 hour spent in the canteen eating cheese fries and nuggets. Hee, cant blame us, positive reinforcement does work here :)

food makes people happy!

i bet you can sense my happiness by looking at my almost closed eyes.

This is definitely a better post!
:)

2008-09-21T15:35:00.002+08:00

IT HAS BEEN SO LONG!

since I last did some things, met up with some people :( I guess I have been bad. I need some time management.

seems like there's so much to say about what has been happening, but I think all cant be summed up in just a few words, or maybe im just plain lazy. but if i were to sum it up, roller coaster ride is the word. haha, im glad im still surviving, going through all these (shit). sometimes, it makes me feel that ive been cut out from my friends, and the worse thing is im actually comfortable with it. recently, there seems to be so many flashbacks and dreams, and im really overwhelmed by the feeling of nostalgia. but i cant give in.

cos this is reality.

assignments and projects slowly piling up, great. how i admire those teachers who have crossed my paths, cause it's really not easy.

just a post to let you guys know that im still surviving! i wanted to say i miss alot of people (which i really do), but on a second thought, it would make everything sound so ... fake? simply because everyone seems to be proclaiming that everywhere.

i dont know if you notice, i think this post seriously lacks coherence, it's just my sudden outbursts or random thoughts. And, I think i sound so cynical.

Maybe the next post would be a better one.

2008-09-07T18:55:00.005+08:00

*pardon the photography skills :D
Singapore Flyer's latest promotion: TEACHERS GET TO FLY FOR FREEEEE
:DDDD
Imagine my elation hahahha :)

How will the kiasu me give this a miss, afterall it's a promotion for Teachers' Day (though im just a teacher to-be) heehee!

Soooo off we went:

*on top of the world, with you! :) YAYYYYYYY!

2008-08-29T23:12:00.002+08:00

Happy to be able to spend my 19th with my loved ones:)
family, friends and my rainbow.
Im 19, and I truly felt it on that day.
Felt so blessed, wishing that I can celebrate with the same groups of people every year.
It was a truly happy one
=)

2008-08-16T16:55:00.001+08:00

Now it's not the time to be addicted to PSP! :(

2008-08-12T22:38:00.003+08:00

i wished i can find that courage i had

When it doesnt hurt, it isnt real.

My day today didnt start out well, was on my way to school until joce's message made me realise today is actually reading week for that module. Was 'stranded' at the train station for quite a while because I cant really decide where to go:( No point going to school and wait for 7 more hours to my next lesson, thus decided to go back to daddy's shop :)

Reached school early for the CCA fair, very crowded and weather was blazing hot. Left my name down for many ccas cos all sounded fun to me. I even joined the 'Food Club', cant blame for a glutton like me, and yup, all we do is just eat! (and perhaps write reviews?) Haha, the eating part is already tempting enough :D Floorball sounds interesting, I wanna be a bowler too..hopefully I'll choose the right cca! English lecture was ... today. Interesting yet confusing, really. Morphology. Hmm.

Time to study!

2008-08-07T19:53:00.000+08:00

It just had to happen, right?

2008-08-02T23:02:00.002+08:00

*new faces, new friendships forged :)

Back! NIE FOC was great, though it can definitely be much better. Haha, had lots of fun, stepped out of comfort zone, forfeited and did some silly stuffs, fright night, amazing race, finale night .. :D
Back to school on Monday, this long long holiday is (finally) ending! I foresee myself getting lost on first day of school, really. Timetable is still okayy, no lessons on thursdays :DD

Out with meinu today, time really passed so fast! We did extensions today haha so fun! Sometimes, i wished we are still in JC, where we spent our days just studying, complaining, eating and having fun. Hmmm.

Some things just cant be explained.
6 days.

2008-07-27T19:24:00.001+08:00

It has been a rather happy week! :)
School was okayy, maybe it's cause we are still in the orientation week, but some things are definitely not going my way :(
FOC camp tomorrow!
Stuffs unpacked, so not ready.
GRRRR.
bye! :D

2008-07-21T23:22:00.004+08:00

Kahhwee's and Jason's 19th! :)
Everyone turned up! Double :)
Roulette, winter melon tea chocolate milk wine
4am mac!
Mahjong, tvee, psp, cards (me and jl only haha)
Pictures
Smiles
Laughter
Friendship =)

2008-07-15T23:04:00.002+08:00

"Why has he gone where I cannot follow?"
"I am always going, and she cannot follow."

Luckily youre not a time traveler.
Haha.
:D

2008-07-07T16:29:00.000+08:00

I wish we could stop at that junction, forever.

2008-07-04T16:12:00.002+08:00

爱情,美在它未开始前的悸动.

我相信.

2008-07-02T23:36:00.002+08:00

Im glad we met up, it has been years. Saw another side of you today, hopefully things will go smoothly for you, my primary one bestie :)

2008-06-24T15:17:00.002+08:00

It suddenly dawned upon me that it's already MID JUNE-08.

A totally new environment, new faces, new lifestyle in time to come. It's not that im not prepared, what is there to prepare anyway? Haha, ohhnoo i think it's just ... dread? I dont know, seems like ive been leading this quite-slack life for quite some time. Sometimes, i wished that i can go back to school to relive those happy days, and now, yes im going back to school but with in a totally new environment :( I dont think im someone who can adapt to changes easily, not very highly sociable haha. Ohhnooo, how? This is so sian :/

So, i wonder what is awaiting me in uni now. Please let it be something... good :)

2008-06-20T00:08:00.002+08:00

sweet sweet 21st pretty darling, now till forever (=

2008-06-11T23:20:00.003+08:00

but hold your breath,
because tonight will be the night that i will fall for you, over again
dont make me change my mind,
or i wont live to see another day,
i swear it's true,
because a girl like you is impossible to find,
youre impossible to find

byebye my army boy!

2008-06-06T16:27:00.000+08:00

Very often, i would find myself brooding over the same matter over and over again, when i thought that i had already gotten over it. Then, i would get all upset, bothered, disturbed again and it spoils my day. Now, i realise i would never be able to get out of it if i choose to stay in this frame of mind.

They say one will only realise who the true friends are in terms of dark moments, how true.
I thank the people who have been there and are still there for me.
But you, seem to have left halfway.

2008-06-06T16:13:00.002+08:00

Very often, i would find myself brooding over the same matter over and over again, when i thought that i had already gotten over it. Then, i would get all upset, bothered, disturbed again and it spoils my day. Now, i realise i would never be able to get out of it if i choose to stay in this frame of mind.

They say one will only realise who the true friends are in terms of dark moments, how true.

I thank the people who have been there and are still there for me.
But you, seem to have left halfway.

2008-05-28T23:05:00.002+08:00

"birds fly high, hard to catch,
friends like you'all, hard to find!"
:)

2008-05-23T14:56:00.002+08:00

Happy 20th birthday sister! (:

This is for a very encouraging friend of mine, she never fails to try her best to cheer us (LOG) up whenever we are feeling down, be there for us and always saying she wants to treat us to yummy food:) Those pre olevel study-at-fajar mac sessions, those encouraging messages little notes and not forgetting those walking home together days. Plus the many motivating words she would say when i had those stupid alevel stressssss, bumping her in pj was often a happy thing cos she would always be wearing that bright sunny smile on her face :D I'll never forget the very very surprising birthday surprise she planned for my 18th hee. Shes a very happy xing fu girl now, may she last long long with her CC. Happy Birthday sister :))

2008-05-21T16:39:00.002+08:00

I need to go to the library soon :)

Chanced upon some stuffs for the past few days, which made me see another side of these people. Their action, though unacceptable(as deemed by some), but i feel that their courage and determination to go against negative comments deserve to be noted. Im not exactly admiring their actions, but at least they dare to face the consequences of their own actions. Be it a mistake they had made in life, as stated by some, they showed the strength to move on. And through all these, i believe that ultimately, women are still at the losing end :( haha.

I want to go to the zoo again! Zoo is such a fun place to go to, haha and best thing of all, i get to see my favourite giraffe(: I think they are shy, in one of the photos i took, i noticed that one of them had its head popping out of the tree hahahha damn cute. Snakes were abit eeee, didnt feel like taking many pictures of them. Haha. Only managed to take a picture of the polar bear's BUTT cause i think they went to rest in their air conditioned room or something, rest for so long still dont want to come out:( Kangeroos were very jumpy! Haha, it was only until that day when i realised their legs look like that. Weather was super hot, but we survived :) Anyway, i think it's really fun to go to the zooooo, makes me happy but in a different way:D

Now, im back in the delta campus. Miss the henderson people! (and the cheap yummy foood too). Haha. I remember saying i dont like farewells, im glad i went through that again, but in a positive way:) Nice working environment, friendly colleagues and most importantly very yummy foood nearby. Haha.

Perhaps it has been long, but i hope to meet up with some people soon:(

2008-05-18T09:34:00.001+08:00

I came across an interesting interview :)

People always say that artists are a little crazy, what is the craziest thing thing that you have done?
Im not crazy; my reality is just different from yours.

The power of words :D

2008-05-04T12:20:00.003+08:00

PSB get together! (=

This is turning more and more into a picture blog, which is definitely not the way i wanted it to be when i started out this. Haha. But well, i think pictures come here, words should go somewhere else :)

Im really happy that i meet nice and friendly people in every phase of my life, at least until now. heee:D

2008-04-27T23:58:00.000+08:00

im so proud of you! =)

2008-04-20T09:55:00.001+08:00

meinu's 20 =) i hope you know how special you are to us!

2008-04-15T14:05:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, i wish i can still be mummy daddy's little girl; to first run over to them whenever things happened, to be able to tell them every single thing that has been happening in my life, to spend almost everyday with them. Im glad i still make the effort to spend time with them, to update them and to somehow assure them, or maybe rather myself, that things hadnt change and im still their little girl.

And i know, i'll be their little girl forever, no matter how much ive grown (=

2008-04-05T12:52:00.001+08:00

playground funn :D

i like this picture (:

2008-03-29T23:32:00.002+08:00

happy 2nd birthday, hay! :)
(hay. mummy, daddy)

happy people are more healthy.
but im not exactly a very happy girl today.

2008-03-25T15:52:00.000+08:00

One of the reasons to explain the incresed frequency of me blogging is that im really really bored at work:( Okayy, but according to someone, it's easy money. HAHAHHA i dont know.

Anyway, i finally watched Koizora(sky of love) after hearing so many positive comments from people around me:) I didnt know theres a cute male lead in the movie until he appeared & i could hear some girls going..."wahhh...omg...ahhhh". Hahahh, but it's a fact that he's cute la :D My initial intention of watching this movie was to see whether it's really so touching. Though friends who know me may say that i cry easily, but i hardly cry over movies. haha,maybe only movies. SO SO SO i was so confident telling kukurainbow that i wont cry! Ya right, in the end i still teared(alot) =/ Simple plot, super beautiful settings, goooooodloooooking characters, i like:D It's been a long time since i last enjoyed a movie so much.

Im seriously super pissed with singtel! arghhh, m1 m1 here i come:)) w380i, soon sooooon!

Ive been losing touch with some people lately, i dont like this feeling.
not at all =(

2008-03-23T00:26:00.001+08:00

expectations

expectations

expectations

expectations

expectations

ARGGGHHHHHHH.

2008-03-19T11:00:00.000+08:00

As i looked at the college year book yesterday,
how i wished i can go back to yesterday's yesterdays.
Those laughter, joy and moments-
is something you can never replace:)

Speaking of laughter, joy & moments, now that i think back, im really happy that you gave me that when i was young. It was the first genuine and true friendship that i found, that pulled me through those wonderful young days, when all was happy and sweet. Although we hardly talk about our problems (maybe we were too young to have any), the fun company was already enough. I wonder how, i wonder why, i wonder where they are. Your words made me think, and rethink. Are we really such lousy company? Do you really think that we do not care? To me, new friends may enter my life, but the good old ones remain, and their places will never ever be taken. Good old ones, good old days, good old company. I thought it is something mutually understood, i really thought so. But again, i thought there would be a day when the good old days unfold again, apparently it didnt. I thought. All i know is that even if the whole world forgets, each and single one of us will still remember, for you.

***

Im slacking at work now, piggin out on the new yummy CHOCOCHIPS cookie which ive just discovered recently. The other temp staff is not here, im alone :( nobody to complain IM SO BORED HELP KEEP ME AWAKE to, nobody to pig out with. Haha, but ive got things waiting for me to do. Finance, since when did i get myself associated with this. I wonder how accountants' brains work:/ University applications is also driving me crazy, i only know i want econs and media commmmmmmmm. I dont know what to fill in for the rest of the options, applications can be quite confusing at times. Dentistry- a career to smile for! hahahha wait long long la.

***

Yesterday was a happy day yayyyy, & you shall not know why:D

***

Back here, with reality slammed right in front of our faces.
As we go on, we remember,
all the times we spent together.
And as our lives change,
come whatever, we'll still be
friends forever

2008-03-13T23:41:00.003+08:00

i cried!...even before we got hold of our results, that was super maluating please:( hah, anyway, that moment and the tension built up before that is something i would never forget. I remember i once told myself, i wont let history repeat itself just like what happened during o's. Maybe, i can say i did it, haha cos tears fell before instead of after the collection of results. Im not going to mention my maluating grades here since there isnt anything to be proud of, you'll know if youre meant to know:) Anyway, despite the tears, i really felt happy when i saw mr khoo's and sas's faces, im glad most of us didnt let them down afterall:) Perhaps, the one reason i didnt go and find m.tham is that i couldn let him see something that he'll be proud of, perhaps. Disappointment with joy, i guess it still takes time to digest this weird mixture of feelings hahahha. But, lousy or great, it's still my A'level result :)

& i know, it'll always be.

2008-03-04T12:54:00.000+08:00

friday. let me imagine.

will the same scene happen again or will i be jumping in joy?

i wonder.
but i know no matter what happens you'll be around:)

2008-02-27T15:23:00.000+08:00

rain/shine, my rainbow, happy 20th =)

Ooooohhh yea ooooh yea
If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?I've been looking for that someone,
I can't make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To become a better man?
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

Every day,I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,

When you look me in the eyes.

And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

& this is for you <3

2008-02-22T15:35:00.000+08:00

I MISS. I REALLY MISS ... ...

ever wondered if a broken connection caan be restored? i once had the hope of restoring it, but now i guess it no longer matters to anyone anymore. perhaps actions have already proved me right, perhaps it has never even come struck anyone before. i give up at this moment, though i know i'll find it a pity when i look back in time to come.

& forever means forever.

2008-02-21T15:40:00.000+08:00

when you look me in the eyes(:

meeting up with them was fun today :) i like the teriyaki salmon! yummy. poor sock, she totally has no voice and can only communicate with us through phone,hope she recover soon! (me too).

bumped into shirley wong xueyan today :) we are fated! dont need to meet up for dinner after work already. HAHAHHHA.

life's been good, work's been okayy. REALLY LOOKING FORWARD to fri's johnnies meetup.

ohh & i actually ate 2 slices of watermelon today,im a healthy girl :D

2008-02-01T16:20:00.000+08:00

(crazy) people who simply brings joy :D

Im learning to count my blessings, i should be happy.

On top of that, im in a not-very-good kind of mood now. I feel cranky i feel sleeeeepy. Yet i dont want to sleep i dont know what i want to do :/ But looking at the picture above, now i feel happy again.

gooooodnight!

ohh! I came across this line in the papers and i fell in love with it totally- In this ever changing world, the most precious commodity to trade in is nostalgia.

how true.

2008-01-27T09:37:00.000+08:00

Reunion dinner later! :)) Today was my first lessons with eugene, quite interesting and i think his foundation is already quite good. Quiet boy and it seems like im always talking =/ haha. After that was lunch with mummy and auntie hahah talked about quite alot of stuffs. Went off to meet kuku rainbow after that AND I ATE ANOTHER LUNCH AGAIN. Sighhh ive really been eating alot lately hahahha but food makes me a happy girl:D especially with cny appraoching, YUMMY PINEAPPLE TARTS!

We had a 'reunion dinner' on thursday! miss clarity's cafe i like! :D credits go to evon for introducing us to that place:

the place where happy people meet :)

my favourite picture! but they said it's too dark. dark meh?

Met up with meinu before that and we went back to pj:) A pity our all time fav chicken rice stall wasnt open, haha so we ate our 2nd fav halal noodles stall. The auntie was so nice,she treated us to noodles! Chatted with the security uncle for a while and he continued telling us his story, & went off to find MR KHOO after that. He's still so cute! haha. After that was our rooftop and secret stairway, so happy to find that our 'artpiece' was still there!

we left our mark:)

& not forgetting my favourite meinu:

only people who are willing to be happy deserve happiness:)

2008-01-24T15:54:00.000+08:00

I've come to a realisation today, while i was at work:) I hope time'll be on my side this time.

Anyway, today was my last day of work, and the same thing happened. I really hate to say goodbye, it's always one of my super emotional moments that i would gladly love to have less of. Sighh. And the worse thing is that i can still feel so sad even when im not really very close with the staffs there. Haha, mdm lim was sweet enough to wish me all the best and stuffs, i like her, shes a nice lady =) Though my working days there were short, but it's afterall still the first official job i took up, nice working experience over there. I hope it's a good start, at least there werent alot of office politics. Haha. I guess i still have a long way to go, in mastering the skill of saying goodbye easily:) And not forgetting my kuku rainbow who has made my gg-to-work journey, lunch/dinner breaks and after-work journeys a happy one. Starting on my new job next week, looking forward to it thought it's going to be a MUCH LONGER distance (my poor ez link), but it's going to be another new experience :D wish me luck!

Going back to pj with meinu tomorrow,cant wait! Ive been missing school for so long, and kuku enoch says he's going to be in school tomorrow. I want to go back to our secret stairway, eat our all time fav chicken rice, relive those emo sad days at the grandstand with my meinu :) Ohh and find mr khoooooo! Schooling days are missed :(

Hopefully 'reunion meal' with sister and weiqian tomorrow (haha according to weiqian). weiqian you better turn up hohh:D I think it feels great meeting up with people whom you care for and care for you tooo. Finally, i dont need to wake up early tomorrow hahahhha im super happy! No more crowded sleepy morning train rides to work, struggling to stay awake blabla, at least for a few more days before new job starts...and everything will return to the dreaded routine again=/

it's built to last (:

2008-01-13T16:21:00.000+08:00

life's been good, im working, rainbow is still lighting up my sky:) im a happy girl again.
but i miss school days, really:(

2008-01-08T17:25:00.000+08:00

"give me the folly needed when the world is too wise
and he courage to keep singing,
when everything sinks"

this quote came into mind again,& im sure it doesn mean anything positive.
im missing literature
and
.

2008-01-04T16:37:00.000+08:00

it's amazing how we've come thus far.

skip the breaking apart part,everything was once beautiful. i bet nobody will ever imagine that we'll be caught in this state now,nobody. obviously some things did went wrong, some things which we never bother to look at. there isnt anyone whom we can exactly pinpoint at, there were just too many things that had happened and will happen. i guess i have to admit that im still a girl who wished that i hadnt grown up, who wish that things will still stay the same.

i dont want to be pessimisstic, yet things are not going very positive either. some stuffs are meant to be kept to ourselves, so i shall stop now.i guess i just need a channel to express all these.

coast to coast,
that was our song.

but i wont give up.

2007-12-30T15:36:00.000+08:00

we grew up, and apart.
i never knew alot of things
& now it hurts,after knowing so much.

2007-12-07T15:20:00.000+08:00

Whitney:
um, hey deb?

Deborah:
Mmm, hmm

Whitney
Thank you for being woman enough to come

Deborah:
Whitney, what is this about?

Whitney:
I know he's leaving me for you

Deborah:
Who said that? Who told you that its true?

Whitney:
What is he telling you?
Could it be the same things that he told me?

Deborah:
He told me that he loved me

Whitney:
I heard that

Both:
He told me I was beautiful

Deborah:
How did you know? How did you know?

Whitney:
Cuz I've played that scene before...

Whitney:
This is a retake of my life
I was his star for many nights
Now the roles have changed
and you're the leading lady in his life
Lights, camera now you're on
Just remember you've been warned
Enjoy it now, cuz it won't last
Same script, different cast

Deborah:
What you're saying could be true,
but how can I take advice from you?

Whitney:
I'm not hating, but I wish the one before me
would have warned me too babe

Deborah:
Don't say no more
la la la la la la la la la la

Whitney:
Uncover your ears, girl

Deborah:
I'm not listening
la la la la la la la la la la

Whitney:
But I know you hear me
Maybe my reasons are wrong,
but I know that you believe me

Deborah:
It's your fault you didn't love him enough

Whitney:
Oh no...that's the problem, I loved him too much
and when you love him,
he becomes unattracted to you

Deborah:
Oh no he's changed and I'll prove you wrong

Whitney:
No you won't

Both:
So GO AWAY!

Deborah:
Leave us the hell alone
Cause he loves me

Whitney:
He'll hurt you

Deborah:
He'll stay with me

Whitney:
He'll leave you

Both:
For sure, for sure

Deborah:
This is is a retake of your life
You were his star for many nights
But now the roles have changed
and i'm the leading lady in his life
Lights, camera now i'm on
Just remember you've been warned
Enjoy it now, cuz this will last
I'm his future, you're his past

Whitney:
This is is a retake of my life
I was his star for many nights
Now the roles have changed
and you're the leading lady in his life
Lights, camera now you're on
Just remember you've been warned
Enjoy it now, cuz this won't last
Same script, different cast

omg super in love with the above song I LIKE I LIKE:DD

anyway,prom's over. haha it's not as bad as i expected, can be considered a nice ending to my JC life :)

lovely(=

2007-11-30T14:04:00.000+08:00

life after As isnt as interesting as i thought, but it certainly passed faster than any other days. is that a good thing? i wonder.

went prom shopping for the past few days with different groups of people. fun! :D i really hope i wont trip and fall in my heels, that'll be so....MALUATING! (ah bel's fav word) saw many pretty dresses, the first one was the prettiest!!! very very super pretty :)) hah, but i didnt buy it in the end, cause it is way tooooooo expensive, dont plan to spend so much on prom anyway. hahah ohh,saw quite alot of familiar faces around, and i actually bunmped into joce on both days! :) saw tayyie and wanling at lot one today.HAHAHHHHA. this shows how much johnnies are fated to run into each other.

think more changes are going to take place after prom. should be starting work soon, if all goes well, i'll be working at bt batok driving center :) hahahh i might end up as ur potential SERVER :D working life is going to be interesting, i hope. but that means lesser time with people whom i enjoy being with =(

i really think friendship is a two way thing.maybe we shouldnt expect so much from people when we haven really done anything for them, get it? theres really no point in saying so much,im disappointed in you.

i refuse to acknowledge this broken connection.

2007-11-15T16:42:00.000+08:00

finally finally finally! :) break of 9 days from my last paper.

the journey hadnt been easy i must admit, but it's certainly something worth going through. hahahhha, i think i got to learn more about myself and the people around me during this period of time:)

we are all halfway through this I CANT BELIEVE IT! HANG IN THERE, the reward will be sweeeet:D

爱你第一个原因就是你的安静，
你就是那么特别那么唯一
虽然你像一朵云飞出我的记忆
我爱你别忘记
我思念这段过去，没有人可以代替
记得我爱你每一个原因
别管我了不了解永远这一个秘语
从今天到以后
我心中有你

hooked.
:)

-thankew.

2007-10-09T12:41:00.000+08:00

" I MISS YOU "

i think it's sad to hear these 3 words(at least in the case for me). It seems to show that i haven been in touch with some people for sooo long:(

i thought it will be different this time,
but maybe,im wrong again.
you are just not that different.
i think,
im losing something(one)

2007-10-05T12:26:00.000+08:00

prelims ended!

27 more days to As

LETS WORK HARD TOWARDS THIS LAST LAP :)

i think i'll be very sad on next friday:( farewell assembly,& im graduating from PJC. hahahha i dont know whether to feel sad or happy,but im certainly having mixed feelings. sighh, i really hate farewell goodbye stuffs, makes people so sad :/

somehow,i feel that pj is a very special place,& within it lies memories which i'll definitely not forget:) i experienced alot here, of sadness/happiness ...HAHAHHHA. yayy I LOVE PJ (and i really mean it)

i wanna say goodbye with a SMILE this time round.

& they'll live happily after :)

2007-09-13T04:28:00.000+08:00

prelims prelims prelims!
sometimes,the disppointment gets so overwhelming that i just feel like doing anything to get over it.
i dont want history to repeat itself.
i dont want to disappoint myself, those who believe in me,those who dont,HAHAHHA too bad.
:D

please dont take my sunshine away:(

2007-09-04T08:36:00.000+08:00

when everything is wrong & nothing seems to be right, life goes on:)

it's raining! the perfect reason to explain why im here,blogging. rainy days never fail to make me want to blog, to talk about significant, silly, random, happy, sad, stupid things that has been happening.

sept hols, or rather sept intensive study days are here to stay. prelims is going to start when school reopens, study prelims study As. i know everything is going to come and pass very soon,it'll happen no matter what. stupid as it may sound, i know im going to miss all the study lectures tutorials days when all these end. & it's going to be real sooooooooon. no plans for this whole week, unless it's going to be studying outside. no temptations no nothing, im going to make this the most productive sept hols ever(in my 18yrs),& im going to cry if nothing pays off. hahahhha:D study and work hard everyone :))

kit kat definitely makes a great studying companion, cheers me up when im totally not in the mood to study:) but of course, over consumption of it will definitely do me no good. but still, I LOVE KIT KAT:D i realise i've been so easily distracted nowadays, over insignificant stuffs. i dont like this :( FOCUS FOCUS I NEED TO FOCUS!

somehow,i just cant seem to remember your face,it's getting vague.

cos it has been long.

have been meeting up with people recently,finally! my birthday certainly gives me a good reason to do so :)) people who really bring joy!

since 12:)

hello handsomes:D

lousy background,lovable people!

(:

the 3 of them look so cute:D

since 05'

pretty meinu in my pullover. ahahha.

& not forgetting my crazy cousins!

this entry is full of love :DDDDD

goodbye people,study/work/play hard:)

2007-09-01T08:41:00.000+08:00

28.08

nobody said growing up was easy.

thanks to those who remembered, who never fail to remember every year, especially( brotherhood, LOG, johnnies, evon sister, cousins, the clique) :) but there were some who forgot, hahahha:( i really felt super happy and loved on my 18th! :D

IM FINALLY 18!

2007-08-08T16:42:00.000+08:00

i love looking at past pictures, brings back so many memories :)

changes-

i saw how much ive changed, all of us. Perhaps, i wish that some things would not change, but still, i'll grow to like the new me.

the one, to witness all the changes in my life.

2007-07-29T17:32:00.000+08:00

i think..
happy people deserve the most happiness
& promise me we'll be happy people in our little own happy world:)

2007-07-14T14:33:00.000+08:00

missed.

2007-07-02T11:48:00.000+08:00

This blog is so dead, so so dead. HAHAHHHA.

Im going to stay at home today, cause staying at home is the safest! staying at home=no need to spend money (which is a big MUST for me now). Im broke, so so broke:( Had been spending too much for the past few days,time to save up again! :D okay anw, was out for mik's and grant's belated birthday celebration yesterday:) Dined at fish and co, and all thanks to lt, we managed to save up some money by sharing the food among the girls. HAHA,no choice la,budget leh. After that all thanks to lt again, we went to MINDS cafe. The atmosphere was really super noisy when we went up,filled with soo many people, all so engrossed in their games.Ahahahha,but we are not any better than them too. Pictionary was fun,very very fun! :DD Okay,so this was what happened yesterday. Backtracking abit, sat was spent with my dear aljay darling shopping :)) Bought quite alot of stuffs,which led me to feel both guilty and also happy at the same time. muahahha:D

Actually,staying at home can be fun toooo. Cause im going to "re-watch" my all time favourite meteor garden! lol,dont laugh. I still think it's a very nice drama :DD

im suddenly in the mood for some old pictures!

the gooooooooooooooooooood old days:)

2007-06-21T16:54:00.000+08:00

when the day comes for us to say goodbye, we shall. im just wondering whether it is so hard to so hard to forgive. how numb can one one actually get? once the passion is gone, no matter how hard i try,i still cant find it back. ultimately,it's not all that matters. i find myself standing at where i once started out, back at one.

2007-05-29T09:31:00.000+08:00

yayy i've found my new love:)

2007-05-14T18:48:00.000+08:00

2007-05-03T21:32:00.001+08:00

full hearted VS half hearted :(

i realised i haven been putting my whole heart into doing some things,thats so sad. many many many many many examples. ARGHH. i can start off being so enthusiastic and so into doing it,the passion dies off and i start to give myself reasons which sound so "convincing" and "justifiable", and then i gave it all up. tsktsktsk,i cant allow myself to do this kind of things anymore cos i wont get anything out of it. yessssssssss nooooooooooo!

i have a question: why do people actually avoid having eye contact?

existentialism:(
do you?

2007-04-29T12:34:00.001+08:00

amazing. too much felt,too much to be said :)

we all know this is something that'll stay for life.

2007-04-26T13:52:00.000+08:00

have you ever wondered how life will change if all unhappy things can end up like this case of shredded pieces, packed & thrown away?

yet again,

2007-04-21T16:51:00.001+08:00

This should be an entry to commemorate the sacrificial of my 2 pre molars for the sake of perfection :(( Now i have 2 ugly holes in my mouth,that just kept bleeding & bleeding, stop bleeding leh. Hahaha,but im so glad that all this is over :)) I like the female dentist who extracted my teeth this morning,she's so nice. She kept urging me to keep my 2 teeth cause she thinks it's cute. yayy i think so too ahahaha:D This will mean porridge for lunch & dinner again,which also means i'll get hungry very very easily again! :( ahahhha,but i dont mind cos mummy cooked something damn yummy for me just now. (=

I think april should be called the EMO MONTH. Somehow,people around me just seem to be feeling not that okay,something's just very different. Im affected,but i really dont know how to deal with it. Everybody loves happy endings,but at the same time,we all know that this is not always the case, haha how sad. Actually on a brighter note,im glad to be feeling this way. At least i know im more in touch with certain things,better than how i've been doing back then. I think about issues which never meant anything to me back then,and doing things which are so unusual of me. Yes,maybe thats a change. Quite alot of things happened lately,theres really a need for self reflection,to think about what kind of effects our words/actions might have on people.

I guess it's time to sort out all the random weird thoughts that has been going on all this while,who doesnt want to be happy? haha but it's just that the definition of happiness varies. At least I know that when i smile,im really happy :) I want to create,not wait.

ahhhyes,i'll make sure it's the last time im feeling this way for you/

2007-04-15T14:41:00.000+08:00

i believe we can do it :)

passion desire pride determination.

2007-04-14T03:02:00.000+08:00

i think what daddy has said is very important,at least i knew i had to make the decision myself. Nobody's going to affect whatever decision i make, at least for now :) thanks for the "talk" just now,i really have to do it.

im in a very very weird mood today/yesterday/recently. i dont know why,but the feeling is just weird. i grew to like things which i never enjoyed doing, i began to feel more for people whom i dont usually do , & i realise, i tend to do things which im not used to doing. and for most of the time, i dont have a reason behind what im doing. :( things are going wrong, not going to be what it used to be anymore. people are divided, some simply refuse to help while the others stay strong as a team. i think nothing's more important than staying together at this point of time. im sorry but you are not going to bring us down.

some lies are unintended, they exist for a reason.

i feel so ________how come so many people are leaving? no matter how far, i hope one day,you all will come back :) ohh someone made me happy today,really happy. but i know,it's only for that moment,it's not going to last.

i knew you heard her today,but why didnt you turn back?

2007-04-11T12:12:00.000+08:00

天上一万颗星星，
我却只看到见你，
我说这是幸运，
还是不可思议。

身边有太多风景，
我却停在这里，
说我傻得可以，
还不是因为你。

-爱的主旋律 :)

im supersupersupersuper in love with this song now (= highly recommended by meeeeeee!

2007-04-09T02:14:00.000+08:00

hello hello all :) just posted an entry yesterday,& here i am again. haha,must be due to the lack of blogging for soooooo long. i think blogging is fun, yup.

sunday=staying at home/studying/sleeping/slacking day. SSSS! alliteration! muahahahhha:D but seriously,i dont think i like sundays. all along, i have been dreading sundays, no particular reason, just the kind of feeling sunday gives me. ohh maybe theres one very obvious reason, cos after sunday comes MONDAY :(

all along i thought that im very good at recognising faces. but noo,it turned out that i couldnt even recognise my childhood playmates :(( this is depressing, really. i cant believe that i couldn recognise them anymore,to the extent that when sy called out to me ytd, i stared at her and almost wanted to ask her who she is. damn pathetic. i never imagine that i'll forget them, never. this makes me realise how we've drifted,how im losing touch with people :(

one day,the passion will be back:)

2007-04-07T17:01:00.000+08:00

i know things are getting tougher,but theres always people who make me happy:)

they made me laugh! :D

I MISS LOG !!

2007-03-18T23:00:00.001+08:00

something's vvvvvv wrong with my computer =((( dont blame me for the lack of post,my computer doesn allow me to view my own blog,thus explaining the not-so-frequent blogging. HAHAHHHHA but nvm i can still upload using my cousin's laptop :)

have been "holiday-ing" for the past one week,studying for common tests & stuffs. muahahhha,get to stay at home for tmr cos i dont have any papers on:DDD econs on tues, lit & maths on thurs,then end of common tests! :)))

after not blogging for soooooooooooooo long,i lost the momentum :(
I LOVE BIGFOOOOOOOT
(=

2007-03-04T14:46:00.000+08:00

HELLO!! im back im back. MUAHHHHHHA :))

2007-02-09T10:54:00.000+08:00

i just realised,it actually takes more than that. perhaps what we've done in the past was just too little:(

been procrastinating for very very long. I HATE PROCRASTINATIONNNNNN. i really really hate it when i start to delay & postpone doing certain stuffs but at the same time,i cant help it. too many things are going on at the same time. my hero has gone to save some other ppl who are in distress =(

it has been so long since i felt that im not going to disappoint a teacher. yes,it came back today:)

stuffs happening in school are not really very happy/sad. maybe i've grown used to it. i kept hearing people around me complaining that life's boring dull mundane. HAHAHHHHHA. i totally agree. great minds think alike. AIYAAAAAAAAA.

i can hear my stomach making funny noises:DDDD dinnertime!

bring me on a ferris wheel ride :))

2007-02-04T10:12:00.000+08:00

i just clicked and it brought me there.
you looked happy.
somehow,that voice just kept coming back,
no matter how hard i tried to fight it
:(
not all pictures are happy,
the people inside look happy,
what about the one seeing it?

today is not a happy day. the only thing im happy about is that i finally understood more about complex numbers.

im just going to study,& do nothing else.
no,no more of that little bit of love/hatred.

2007-02-03T15:44:00.000+08:00

hello blog:)

east coast park for PVC prep & rehearsal.
xiang's house
maggi mashed potato, mentos, fruitips, ice cream, potato chips, mee goreng, iced coffee
meet up with LOG

some hero pls save me from all the incompleted overdue hw & maths test on the coming week!pls pls pls,i'll love you forever:))

I LOVE HOT & SPICY MEE GORENG! YUMYUM :DDDD

2007-01-28T07:12:00.000+08:00

motivation drive passion discipline.

rainy days are back again :) & :( the desire for shopping is soooooooooooo strong today! & i almost almost gave in. HAHAHHHHHHA. but nono,the hardworking studious intelligent me decides to stay at home to complete all the work which forever seems to be ENDLESS. life now is so so soooo different from last year,too different. im still not used to it. hello pple,pls make life in school more interesting for me,thanyou very much:D i dont like having econs lecture in that LT,i prefer last yr's LT3. now,everything is like so cramped and small & i totally cant absorb what the lecturer is saying. give me back my LT3!!!!!!! lit lessons are much more interesting this year though,& this is sth to be happy about:)) watched othello modern version ytd & it's really so so so nice,though it's a tragedy. but still,long live othello&desdemona. i've no idea what im talking about=/

i finally did my runs ytd! i found it quite weird to realise that im actually missing running. HAHAHHHHA. nevermind,I RAN YESTERDAY & MY WRIST DOESNT HURT THAT MUCH. yayy. dear wrist,pls recover soooooon.

i seriously think the plot for the 7pm chnl8 show is lousy.

shopping tomorrow!! i wanna shop&shop&shop :)) cant even rmb my last shopping trip,it must be super long ago. what a pathetic life im living. TSKTSKTSK. how i wish it will rain money. ahahhhhha. fat hope=( econs CA on monday! have to go read up the notes again cos i really have no idea what is going through during those lectures. sadsadsad. ohh yaa,presenting to you sth stupid.

fat&ugly,
slack&lousy,
stupid&unlucky,
this is what's happening to me&kathy.

i cant help feeling lousy&demoralised some days for some unknown reasons. yes,thats the worst part.UNKNOWN REASON. i cant stand that wallowing in self pity & blabla feelings anymore=( those are the lousy days.

new yr resolutions:
study hard
play hard
train hard
love hard (sounds weird)
sleeeeep hard
live hard

=]

2007-01-25T11:13:00.000+08:00

im not getting anywhere=(
sometimes i feel happy :) but any little thing that follows next can just lead to a drastic change :(
i dont like this,it makes my life so dull & boring & lifeless & the negative terms go on and on.
im not seeing people who makes me happy, & sometimes even when i do, they somehow lose the effect.
haiya,whatever,life still goes on.
cheeeeeeer up chanxueting:DD

i get to see sister every morning :)) xiang is my morning partner to school :))

my wrist doesnt seem to get any better,except tt it is not swollen and doesnt hurt tt much. but but i still have difficulty turning it. tsk,this is what happens when it is just not your day.

im too used to that,sorry.

2007-01-19T16:00:00.000+08:00

happy people will have happy endings (=

2007-01-19T08:44:00.000+08:00

i rather be a child,
to just innocently believe your words,
than to have your words lead me to somewhere,
more than just where we can be.
:(

tis not safe anymore,
i need somewhere more personal,
another place perhaps
(=

2007-01-10T11:11:00.000+08:00

lovely people :))

2007-01-06T10:46:00.000+08:00

3rd day of school! i need to get out of my cuti-cuti mood. (if u know what it means:D ) i feel so old when i see those new J1s having orientation,just made me think abt those MI days:) IM EIGHTEEN. muahahahhhha. dont mess with people who are eighteen:DD

I LOVE PICTURES! :))

me gz & shan on board the VIKING :DDD

girls plus DADDY :))

YAY :D

cousins uniteeee!

marilyn lijun horse soldier me shan daddy =)

lalalalala =)

it's tooooo dark. too bad u cant see our PRETTY faces :D

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

im falling in love with janice's never let u go:)

2006-12-26T03:33:00.000+08:00

merry merry christmas people! :D
thanks to PVC, Moral Home For The Disabled & my daddy mummy cousins aunties uncles grandma blablah...=)

i had a very very different christmas eve this year,a day i'll never forget :))

2006-12-21T11:16:00.000+08:00

rain rain go away,
come only when im sleeping
:D

the past few days had been quite fun,but there's always a price that comes with it=/ nevermind,i shall talk about the happier stuffs first. finally met up with the loggies for dinner at yuki yaki on monday! :)) though it was a very short & fast dinner,i had absolute fun displaying my culinary skills. MUAHAHHHHA. call me chen shi fu in the future:D i love cooking food on aluminium foils! whats that called? bbq-ing? hmm...okay. aiya,but the bad thing is that all 8 of us didnt get to sit at the same table. tooooooo bad. next came the frying ice-cream part. yummy! i admit i cant fry ice-cream,whatever comes out doesnt look like ice cream at all. siewfong is our table's ice-cream queeeeeeen=))

also met up with elaine & joyce:) never a moment of silence with them,they can really laugh at the slightest things. talked about those days back in MI, so fun,so interesting,so crazy. hahh,really miss good old days. more meeting ups in the future tayyie & elaine! :)

im falling more&more in love with the game of possession:DDD

i have to learn to love maths. looking forward to xmas party for the children, christmas with johnnies & post christmas with brotherhood && my KL trip. YAY^^

spread the love!
my new love is MATHS!!
ya,i hope it will love me toooooooooo.

2006-12-11T16:10:00.000+08:00

tsk.
it's always so hard to say goodbye.
byebye,
my orange sunshine
:(

2006-12-06T15:48:00.000+08:00

you & me,we'll stay this way forever :))
spent my day with brotherhood today,they're still the best bunch of friends i ever had.
thanks for being there since primary6,
good friends dont say goodbye that easily.
for the brotherhoooooooooooooooood!
:DD

2006-11-30T04:05:00.000+08:00

yesterday was friendly match against westwood sec & PVC meeting at KAP:)

ytd was a looooooooong day i must say,yet productive & fulfilling.
I SAW JOYCE & JOCE AT CCAB =))) muahahahahha.
lotsa thanks to siewcheng for those goodies wrapped in aluminiun foil stuffed inside MAC's bag:D
yes,i must achieve my personal goals by sunday.
i tore my leg muscle yesterday=X
hockey camp on FRI SAT SUN.
tomorrow's MUMMMMMMMMY'S birthday =)))
stretch stretch S-T-R-E-T-C-H.
i feel like eating the hiphop jelly now.
i miss my ex-neighbours,my childhood playmates.
those hide&seek times,playing silly games along the corridor,sharing the bowl of strawberries:)
SY, KM, CJ & LJ,i miss you guys lots lots LOTSSSSSSSSSSS.

thanks for that,it actually means alot.

2006-11-24T11:07:00.000+08:00

LIFE'S GETTING TOUGHER=/

go on,be strong
&
dont go.

2006-11-21T07:37:00.000+08:00

YOU'RE MY SUNSHINE,MY ONLY SUNSHINE,YOU MAKE ME HAPPYYYYY WHEN SKIES ARE GREY**

ahahah,i saw this super nice line as i was browsing through my diary:) but now,no more sunshine.BOOHOO=/but still,i like this song! speaking of songs,i finally got 2 of my current fav songs from my loyal song provider,misslimweiqian:D muahaha,she made me so happy by sending the songs to me yesterday. was out with lj and we went shopping!we spent loads on clothes and food. had ajisen for dinner and we felt so full after that.then we came up with a PLAN,a super productive plan i hope:) ohh,and we went jogging at night. YAY=) it's really time to say byebye to those eeky fats!

sister accompanied me for dental today and we had to wait soooo long despite being early=/ patience is a virtue,i know:) thats why i patiently waited and only complained oaacsionally. the dentist told me sth today:

"this tooth is getting abit stubborn"

"huh really?"

"yeah,but nvm we'll see what we can do with it the nxt time i see you"

"okay:)"

"the treatment is going to end soon."

AHHHHH nono,for a moment i felt quite sad. i told kuku heng that i'll miss my braces and she laughed at me. i'll really really miss them! afterall,it had been with me for more than a year.HAHAHHHA.so today,i chose my favourite colour knowing that it's going to be one of the last few treatments:)) okay,nevermind. then after that was lunch at bakerzin with sister! yum yum,i love the big sandwich and ice chocolate:DD sister's friend is working there and we got a discount. ahahahha,yummy treat. then after that, we cabbed home cos she had to rush to the airport. i seriously thought that the taxi driver is a malay until i heard him speak hokkien. haha,looks are really deceiving.

my teeth hurts,but nvm,braces i still love you:)

hockey hockey hockey!haven been to trngs for almost a week cos of the SIF METRO thing. pitching on friday and trng on friday! :)

tomorrow's lit field trip! yay,im looking forward to it,and i heard tt our last stop is esplanade. hohoho,certainly reminded me of the TRAIL that time.i miss those kids from siling primary,esp my fav boy! :D kukuheng just told me that some guy called her up ytd looking for me. haha pls,that was so funny. coincidental coincidence! blahh.

OUCH. it still hurts.

2006-11-18T14:38:00.000+08:00

stupid blogger doesnt allow me to post pictures,instead of pictures,i see ugly green grey weird boxes appearing=//

wednesday was fun,super super super FUN :)) steam-boated at joce's hse and talked like we have never talked before by the pool. dont ask me why,i just know that this friendship will be, forever :)

yesterday was the funniest day in my 17yrs of life.HAHAHHHHHA.2 MRpolicemen actually came knocking at our door.no worries,we didnt commit any crime,we are just warned about our laughter which apparently caused some disturbance to some "i-dont-know-who" neighbours. ahahahha,it seems that we were too engrossed in that kuku lame game and laughed toooooo loudly. AHHHHH,whatever. but it was fun :)) even with only the 5 of us present,we could actually attract policemen,i wonder what will happen when the 10 of us are present. love love them soooo much :)))

today was charity day! me zur kuku mei did our cip for the metro thing. had to wake up super early this morning (and tmr) to meet kuku meinu to take bus 67 all the way to tampines. how fun. the bus was sooo packed in the morning though we still managed to get a seat eventually,cos apparently nobody was so free like us to sit all the way to tampines. but but never mind! i love long bus rides =) the people i met today were all so nice,i like.

lalalalalala.
i miss the view when there was me&you :D

2006-11-15T15:51:00.000+08:00

today is a happy day! :))

HAHAHHHA,the main reason is because it is the first time in my 17years of life that im working.okay,this sounds dumb,but it's true=) today was the kids from siling primary,and yup,though they could be quite playful and noisy at times,but still,they made my day:) especially when my fav boy from F5 said to me:

"you must collect back our booklets,then u will remember us"

HAHAHHHA,i really will:)but obviously, i didnt collect their booklets=/

after that was dinner with joyce,xiang,dorothy and joce at clementi hawker center.hahahha,i realised we have been gg there quite often lately.But it really feels super fun dining out with friends in hawker centers,and the food is heavenly:) BUT BUT,today our all time fav western food shop wasnt opened!! how sad,so me and joyce "betrayed" the uncle and ate from another western food stall. YUM YUM :)

ohh i just finished reading the book.
it didnt have a happy ending.

2006-11-11T14:18:00.000+08:00

"life is hard only when you never take it easy"
-quoted from YELLOW DUCKIE:)

agree agree,i totally agree with the above line.I LOVE MY PENCILCASE:))

Today was PVC meeting at KAP and after that,walking around at westmall. Okay,turnout rate wasnt that wonderful today,but but,we had some lead mentors who joined us too. Some good experience though the meeting wasnt carried out that smoothly,but i think it ended on a happy note?At least we talked some stuffs out and yah,we shall all own the proj together. TEAM PIONEER!

There was supposed to be this briefing on monday's trails but it was cancelled. IM SO SO SO SAD=/ that means my 90bucks is gone gone GONE!! hohohoh,good luck to me,im temporarily jobless now.Now im starting to wonder how come school hols start so early(for pri schs).tsk tsk tsk.But logically,schools should organise more excursions and outings for the students during holidays!!HAHAHHA,okay,never mind.I could have picked up another offer,but it clashes with trainings=/I want to go on trails,i think it's going to be so so so soooooo fun with the kids:D Ting Ting's reaction to me being in hockey was so so so BIG and FUNNY. ahhhhh okay.

=))
i spilled my icelemontea at KAP just now,but the person was kind enough to replace it.
Good service made my day.
hahahhhha.

i realised determination is such an important factor in whatever we do. Okay,u can say that im slow but at least i realised okay:)

PW is finally overrrrrrrrrrrrr.ahahahha.no more pw-ing late in the night,PW is not going to deprive me of my sleeeeep anymore.HAH,but one thing for sure,im definitely going to miss the pw-ing times with my grp.all those last minute stuffs and panics,definitely worth remembering:) We shall all go take up pilates and pregnancy exercises in the future!hahahha,to show that at least we learnt something out of PW =))

training's at NINEam tomorrow.
everyday's going to be a happy day,
i promise:)

2006-11-06T14:21:00.000+08:00

i have no idea,i dont want to. But i know this is going to be an emo post=/

on that green patch of field,i see different players,
playing the game their way.
In their eyes,i saw passion.
the burning desire to win,
confidence.
cheers, cheers, and more cheers along the way.
the excitement and emotions they had,
always left me feeling
___________
to find the voice within?
will i ever be able to do that,
i cant help but wonder.
one word of encouragement makes my day,
but one look from the eyes is enough to break it.
no,not that feeling.
it never fails to spoil my day.
the game of possession,
my game of emotions.